Sunday, March 28, 2010

Eli's habitat...20 weeks

My body has been taken over!

OK, so today I have been a little bit melancholy (Bailee loves that word) about the massive changes in my body with this pregnancy. I first of all do not remember being this huge this early with either of the girls and I definately do not remember being this HUNGRY with the girls. I guess those boys start eating you out of house and home in the embryonic stage! So I am getting big and gaining more weight than I thought I would have at this point and it is depressing. What's more depressing is that I am nearly pasty white (for me) and my handsome husband is all brown and trim from all of his honey-do's that keep him running around like the energizer bunny. Speaking of the energizer bunny, I think that's exactly what's in my uterus because this kid is ACTIVE!! And I do love feeling every little twitch. I have to say that he already has me very much wrapped around his hungry little finger and I am already in love with him. So I decided to list some things about this total body transformation that I am thankful for instead of harbouring on the negative.

1. My boobs are huge. Which my husband thinks is awesome, but more importantly I hope that it means that I will have no issues producing enough milk to feed my little man.

2. My wedding ring still fits. I love my wedding ring. I can't tell you how emotionally attached I am to it. I want to keep it on my sausage finger as long as possible.

3. My pre-pregnancy jeans still fit...with a fantastic elastic button configuration that they sell at motherhood maternity.

4. I am actually craving healthy stuff like lots of fruits and vegetables.

5. My belly bump is pretty cute in the right light and editing. :)

6. The bigger I get, the bigger my son is getting.

7. My husband tells me I am beautiful all the time. Which really helps. Honestly.

8. Summer is almost here and I can wear my flowy dresses and flip flops that I love so much.

9. I will deliver at the end of summer which gives me all fall, winter and spring to get back in shape before swimsuit season.

10. This is my last baby so I WILL enjoy it. And for now rubbing my ever-growing tum is the next best thing to holding the little guy.


Monday, March 1, 2010

My son

Dear Eli,

I guess I can address you formally now since I have scientific evidence that you are, in fact, a boy. I am no longer relying on my "hunches" or dreams, etc. But you and I both know that it was more than that. God knew you were going to be my son the minute your dad and I first talked about having you. And I knew you would be Eli a mere two weeks into this journey. It's like we already know each other. I dream about you almost every night. Sometimes you are still in utero. Only once have I dreamt of you being born. I have lots of dreams with you as a young toddler/preschooler. Several of you at our house, playing in the driveway while your daddy works in the garage or of him helping you out of his truck that's sooo big to you. Most of the time you have sandy blonde hair. Only once did you have a little darker brown hair. But your eyes are a different color almost every time. Sometimes brown, sometimes blue, sometimes more green. You are always determined and mostly serious. Like your dad when he is cooking or working on a project. He is an amazing man. You are really lucky to have him as your ultimate role model. I can't wait for you to meet him. And I know he can't wait to meet you. I don't think I have ever seen him as excited about anything as he was today when he saw he was having a son. Son. I love that word.

You have been giving me horrendous headaches of late. But tonight I am peaceful. As I sit here in bed with the laptop gently pressing against my tummy, I can feel you pushing against it on the lower left side. That's where you always are these days. Your daddy's always on my left side too. And there you are snuggling in as between us as you can get in utero.

You are going to grow up to be amazing. Just like your dad. You have made our family complete. Now we just wait for you....