Friday, August 27, 2010

My Guys

These are my guys. MY guys!! I have Chase and mini-Chase. Everyone I know who has a son told me while I was pregnant, "little boys LOVE their mommys" and "there's just something special about my little boy". I didn't really understand how special until I held him in my arms for the first time. I definitely felt bonded to him during the pregnancy but it really clicked after he was here. I love the way he looks up at me while he is eating and how I can quiet him when no one else can and how when someone else is holding him and he hears my voice his eyes seek me out and his head bobs around to try to see where my voice is coming from. I am smitten.

And his daddy is absolutely head over heels for him. I don't think Chase really understood how much he was going to love this little guy. Sometimes Chase is so confident about things that he thinks he already knows what something feels like, even if he's never experienced it first-hand. I think Eli caught him off guard. He has taken care of children through his job, he takes care of the girls, he has dated other girls before me who had children and his mother had a childcare business in their home but NOTHING compares to having your own little creation, flesh and blood in your arms. And it is so inspiring to watch him learn how to be a daddy to the little guy. He just LOVES him. And Eli was mesmerized by his voice in the hospital. Chase would talk to him and Eli would just look with wide eyes and get so still.

I love my life. It is complete. All the holes are filled. This is my family, my past, present and future. And I could not ask for more.


Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I'm baaaaaccck!!

"I'm bringin' Luvy back! Yeah! Those other bloggers won't know how to act! Yeah!"
That is what I told my friend Jamie when she asked me where Luvy had been. Except I broke a promise...I told her Luvy would be back last night but I am about 13 hours late. Sorry Jamie!

What can I say? I have a newborn! I gave up blogging during the last trimester of my pregnancy because A)I was exhausted and B)I was becoming a negative, self-loathing pregnant person so I figured I would spare you. But now I'm back! With a new, very handsome man in my life to talk about!

Eli Chase Schriewer arrived Wednesday, July 21 at 11:44 am via c-section (insert bad word) at WNJ in Sherman, TX. My compliments to my doctor, Sandmann, through gritted teeth for slicing me open and Dr. Cogswell (anesthesiologist) and Regina Sweetin (CRNA/Angel sent from Heaven), a host of L&D nurses, my husband and last but not least, one of my dearest friends, Jamie Brawner who held my hand when my husband couldn't (he went with the baby) and made sure everyone was doing their job to the best of their abilities when I was snockered (thanx again to Regina!). Eli weighed in at 7 lb, 8 oz (just two oz off from the dream I had early on in my pregnancy) with apgar 9/10 (his first A+) and was 19 1/2 inches long. He had a little dark hair and newborn blue eyes and beautiful skin. He also had his male equipment intact, which my husband took a picture of first thing when they laid him on the warmer! He came home two days later and was greeted by his sisters the next day. Autumn is happy not to be the youngest and thinks he is the cutest thing since the Littlest PetShops and Bailee (who I was a little worried about) is completely head-over-heels in love with him. Like Autumn thinks he's cute and cool and all that but Bailee loooooovvvveesss him. And of course his daddy is amazed that he created a little human being. Almost daily I hear "we made that! He's our creation!".

Being a mom to a newborn again hasn't been without it's challenges. I will say that aging 10 years has settled me about some things. Like if something doesn't get done today then Oh Well! And when he cries I'm not jumping through hoops instantly because God forbid my baby cry! But I will tell you one thing that is really kicking my tail...BREASTFEEDING!! I know it's all natural and believe me, I am a granola girl at heart, but if it's all so natural then why do I know so many moms who have production problems and are taking herbal supplements (like me, but so far not working) or even using prescription meds like Reglan! It may have been natural back in Biblical times when women's sole responsibility was the home and the children. But I swear if they had to take kids school clothes shopping and to soccer practice they would have brought a goat along to feed the baby for them now and then and get some reprieve! It's hard work! That bottle with that "horn" attached to it is what my life revolves around these days...and nights! Speaking of which, it feels like glass is shattering in my chest now so I better go heed the call!

Glad to be back!