Friday, August 27, 2010
These are my guys. MY guys!! I have Chase and mini-Chase. Everyone I know who has a son told me while I was pregnant, "little boys LOVE their mommys" and "there's just something special about my little boy". I didn't really understand how special until I held him in my arms for the first time. I definitely felt bonded to him during the pregnancy but it really clicked after he was here. I love the way he looks up at me while he is eating and how I can quiet him when no one else can and how when someone else is holding him and he hears my voice his eyes seek me out and his head bobs around to try to see where my voice is coming from. I am smitten.
And his daddy is absolutely head over heels for him. I don't think Chase really understood how much he was going to love this little guy. Sometimes Chase is so confident about things that he thinks he already knows what something feels like, even if he's never experienced it first-hand. I think Eli caught him off guard. He has taken care of children through his job, he takes care of the girls, he has dated other girls before me who had children and his mother had a childcare business in their home but NOTHING compares to having your own little creation, flesh and blood in your arms. And it is so inspiring to watch him learn how to be a daddy to the little guy. He just LOVES him. And Eli was mesmerized by his voice in the hospital. Chase would talk to him and Eli would just look with wide eyes and get so still.
I love my life. It is complete. All the holes are filled. This is my family, my past, present and future. And I could not ask for more.